Entering Week 5

I am not excited about posting this week. This week has been so busy, and I here I sit at 2:30 in the morning writing this blog with a slight fever that came out of no where and a stuffy nose. And I have class in 6 hours. Oh, and mono has been going around campus, so I hope I don't have that. Woohoo.

This week as far as eating healthy has been rough. I have eaten french fries on multiple occasions and have gone over my calorie limit almost everyday. I still haven't had soda, and I've been doing good about the sugar. It's the grease that is the problem. Nothing tastes better to me than a warm hamburger with melted cheese and all the good stuff, with a side of greasy hot fries and ketchup and honey mustard. But, because I have been so busy this week (not sure what exactly I've been busy doing, everything is such a blur right now) I have been eating dinner after the Nautilus Market has closed, and have had no other option than to go to Papa John's which is right next to my residence hall.

This is painful to type. This week I have had:
1 cheese pizza
1 garden fresh pizza
1 cinnapie
2 boxes of Macaroni and Cheese
3 servings of Fries
3 servings of Fried Chicken
1 trip to TCBY
and to top it all off 1 hamburger from the Market.

Wow, writing it out like that puts it in perspective. Looking at my eating habits this week shows me both how far I have come, and how easy it is to slip back into my old eating habits. Usually, if I wasn't sick, I would be craving some french fries or leftover cake or brownies or a big bag of Tostitos Hint of Lime chips and queso. And I would probably be pigging out right now. But the fact that I know that I can stay up late working on homework or studying, and NOT pig out is a huge accomplishment. And even though the stuff I have been eating this week hasn't been good for me, the amount I eat is significantly less. I usually eat something really small for breakfast, like fruit and coffee, and then have a larger lunch and dinner. Something else I have figured out, it has a lot to do with the time that I eat. If I eat dinner at 5 pm, work on an assignment until 11 or 12, I'm starving by the time I go to bed. So by eating later, say around 7 or 8, I am able to curve those cravings a bit.

But still, seeing all of the bad things I ate last week still sucks. But this week will be a new week.

I haven't been doing so well on the exercise either. I went to the gym 4 times this week, only 4 times! Mostly due to being busy, but I know I can find time in my schedule somewhere. The problem now is, the closer tests and exams get, the less time I have to put aside to working out, and I can't let my grades suffer to go to the gym everyday. I am doing my best, but right now I have two exams at the end of this week, so academics are definitely going to be my focus. If I stick to the schedule I have made for myself I should be able to get in at least 30 minutes a day in. This plan could be quickly squandered if I wake up tomorrow feeling just as bad as I do tonight. Bleeehhhh.

I really need to get right with God again. I can say that this week I have tried to read my Bible but it would be a lie. This is also very painful to admit. I feel like for a while I have been very strong in my faith, but I just haven't been able to continue to grow closer to God like I used too. Sometimes I just get so sidetracked that when I have time to read I simply don't. I want to start moving in my relationship with God again, but it is hard for me because I either don't know how too, or I don't want too. The condition of my heart is either not right, or I am just unwilling to give it to him right now. I need to figure out what piece of my heart that I'm holding onto. I am strong in my beliefs but not strong in my faith right now. I hope to change that this week, with God's help.

Now I know so far this blog post has been pretty depressing, but I don't want you to think my whole week sucked, it didn't, it's been pleasant! It's just as far as my eating, exercise, and faith go, I have been less than thrilled to say the least. I have had a lot of fun with my friends this week, I have met so many new people and have grown closer to the friends that I already had. It is exciting for me to see new relationships start and old ones continue to grow.

On a much happier note, I am pretty sure I dominated my math test this week, I find out what I got on Wednesday so if it is good I will be posting about it for sure. And I really do love this school. I am so happy here and I love all of the people that I have met and I really feel like this school is perfect for me.  I love it here, for sure!

Now if I can just beat this sickness. That's all for this week!